That's my Ego your Stepping on..

Really, I am an idiot. Ok background on my being an idiot. I have been feeling bored of my blog.. this blog mainly. I look at other bogs and they are prettier. I like tags ( though i have that option here and am too lame to do so). I am captivated with how the whole RSS reader blog roll thing works, plus I like the idea of it telling me who wrote something new so I don't have to go all over blogland looking. Who thinks of these things? It's brilliant really..if I can fiqure out how to make it work.. so far, I really have not. But I want to. I hear that once you get this all to work the right way... if you see a new blog and you dig it, then all you have to do is hit your feed button or something and it knows to go to your blog roll... that's cool. I so have no clue how to make to happen, but I want to. I also have no clue how to master these things called CSS.. cascading style sheets. I know that understanding them is key to customizing blogs, but and I even know where to find the hot tips and info how to make it work, but it's like physics for me, or calculus. I can read the words and try to follow it, but the words all just swirl together in my brain. They refuse to line up straight and make sense. But I try to read stuff like that periodocially. I hate code and HTML. I just don't get it, and I hate that! Coz i want to do the things that i could do if i understood code. And I understand the premise of it, but i cannot remember it. I can't memorize code. But I know if I could I could make the coolest blog..it would be so pretty. I'm in the mood for change, I want some color. I think I want to move to Wordpress..they have Widgets over there. Not that I know what a Widget is, but I know they are cool, so I want them. Plus my picture here is so outdated. I'm not nearly a bleach blond. That picture is over 10 years old. I look like my mother. It feel boring here. So I have started making the new home.. at wordpress.. and I want to have neat graphics.. I'm having fun. And in that, I have been doing my links.. Oh my.. there are just so so many! Some I have links to already, but have never seriously read. Others I have heard of, but never found. Really, just so many blogs..just getting all is staggering..no wonder why I had to give up. So, I am trying to get control of all this technogargon. In the meantime.. it make me feel very out of the loop. Coz, and I know this sounds all....stupid and annoyingly egotistical...but i look at a new blogroll of someone..and i actually feel upset if I am not listed. I want to kick myself for even feeling it. But I do..so I might as well admit it, and be aware. Completely off subject, yet still neurotic: it drives me crazy when people spell my name : ClaudE ugg!!!! No E, no E, no E!!! C L A U D NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOEEEEEEEEEEE thank you I use to tell people all the time as it does tend to get under my skin, but so many people screw that up, I'd have to be like uber bitch about it every day. So I don't think I have made an issue out of it for like a year now. I just ignore the male distinguishing "E" at the end of my name. It isn't really worth it..and I do think people feel bad when they realize it. I doubt anyone does it just to irk me..it's just one of those things to me. Like nails on a chalkboard. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Yeah so...I feel grouchy. My arm still sucks. Almost 2 whole months of broke arm...woopeee. poopie.