I have maybe a few photos where I know I'm pregnant with Bj, but not at all visible in the photos. Then the day I went to Bj's parents' lawyer, they took one photo of me and Homer where they made sure I was visibly pregnant and happy for them to show him later. Poloroid film, so how well that will last through the years, I dunno.
And then after he was born there was no pictures taken of me with him. Maybe my mom took another poloroid, but I don't think it was of me holding him.
So that time is basically my memories, all fuzzy from shell shock and nothing from a fly on the wall perspective.
Not one damn picture of me with my son. How is that right? I haven't cried since I don't know how long. But that did it. And my own stupid blog is broken right now so this is where that post is going to go.
I thank God and brave first moms who speak out every day that my family was saved from the agony of losing a child. Reform, reform, reform. Please everyone push for reform.
Just wonderful. I had the same chills I had when I saw the reunion photos the first time.
I need to comb through your sites, yours, Nicoles, etc., but I've had an idea about creating a downloadable PDF booklet or brochure of the types of aid available to mothers who feel they can't parent because of resources. I did something similar a long time ago for general county aid programs, but it had nothing to do with crisis pregnancy support.
Has anything like this been done? Is it something you see as being helpful?
Oh I see the typo..oh well, It's staying. I am a lazy ass..and really it takes FOREVER to save this thing and upload it. Its a Claudism.
I popped it on right before I had to go to work, so the blog preceeded YouTube getting it together, but I see they caught up. Sorry..you'll just have to come back!
Oh MPS, I KNEW I was only oing to have those pictures for years..that it would be all I could hold on too..so I took alot. Of I had people take them. I have like two rolls work..I had to edit alot out..and ones like his butt, I refrained for his sake. But I took tons..poor kid..first days on earth were filled with flash bulbs. I bothered him all the time taking pics..sleeping, crying, eating, nakid..lol. Still wish I had more..woud love to see what he looked like at age four and 12, etc..still clueless there. And there are TWO pictures of me PG with him. Only one can my belly bulge be seen..and I have another baby sleeping on me and I am sleeping too.
There IS already an EXCELLENT booklet written by Heather Lowe..years ago..about the rights of a Bmother...Its is free to download and available though CUB too. I know for a fact that most of the agencies in this country were given it and another done by Brenda Romancik...needless to say they DON'T use them. Can't educate those kinds of girls..heck they might get wise and keep their babies!!
I just want to reach through the photo's of young Claud and hug her and tell her that she is a wonderful mum already, don't let him go. Yet again Claud your writing (well now movies) bring me to tears...and hubby is wondering what I am watching over and over!
Beautiful. My favorite part? Seeing all the rings and bracelets on a young you and then fast forwarding to a young Max with that same sense of style his mom had when he was born.
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ReplyDeleteme too Jenna
ReplyDeleteditto. but i will be back to check!
ReplyDeleteit is coming up now.
ReplyDeleteyou were right about the tissues.
(there is a typo on agency somewhere...)
i am going to send this around...
beautiful claud, just beautiful.
ReplyDeleteumm,, all those pictures,gulp
ReplyDeleteyes it made me cry,,
definalty hit home,,
ani
Not that this is about me right now...
ReplyDeleteI have maybe a few photos where I know I'm pregnant with Bj, but not at all visible in the photos. Then the day I went to Bj's parents' lawyer, they took one photo of me and Homer where they made sure I was visibly pregnant and happy for them to show him later. Poloroid film, so how well that will last through the years, I dunno.
And then after he was born there was no pictures taken of me with him. Maybe my mom took another poloroid, but I don't think it was of me holding him.
So that time is basically my memories, all fuzzy from shell shock and nothing from a fly on the wall perspective.
Not one damn picture of me with my son. How is that right? I haven't cried since I don't know how long. But that did it. And my own stupid blog is broken right now so this is where that post is going to go.
=o/
Tissues?? How about extra large bath towels??
ReplyDeleteI thank God and brave first moms who speak out every day that my family was saved from the agony of losing a child. Reform, reform, reform. Please everyone push for reform.
Happy G'Ma
Just wonderful. I had the same chills I had when I saw the reunion photos the first time.
ReplyDeleteI need to comb through your sites, yours, Nicoles, etc., but I've had an idea about creating a downloadable PDF booklet or brochure of the types of aid available to mothers who feel they can't parent because of resources. I did something similar a long time ago for general county aid programs, but it had nothing to do with crisis pregnancy support.
Has anything like this been done? Is it something you see as being helpful?
OMFG!
ReplyDeleteLove it!
A dream come true.
Thank you for sharing.
Oh claud, it is so beautiful...
ReplyDelete-rox
Oh I see the typo..oh well, It's staying. I am a lazy ass..and really it takes FOREVER to save this thing and upload it. Its a Claudism.
ReplyDeleteI popped it on right before I had to go to work, so the blog preceeded YouTube getting it together, but I see they caught up.
Sorry..you'll just have to come back!
Oh MPS, I KNEW I was only oing to have those pictures for years..that it would be all I could hold on too..so I took alot. Of I had people take them. I have like two rolls work..I had to edit alot out..and ones like his butt, I refrained for his sake. But I took tons..poor kid..first days on earth were filled with flash bulbs. I bothered him all the time taking pics..sleeping, crying, eating, nakid..lol.
Still wish I had more..woud love to see what he looked like at age four and 12, etc..still clueless there. And there are TWO pictures of me PG with him. Only one can my belly bulge be seen..and I have another baby sleeping on me and I am sleeping too.
There IS already an EXCELLENT booklet written by Heather Lowe..years ago..about the rights of a Bmother...Its is free to download and available though CUB too. I know for a fact that most of the agencies in this country were given it and another done by Brenda Romancik...needless to say they DON'T use them. Can't educate those kinds of girls..heck they might get wise and keep their babies!!
Claud
ReplyDeleteI just want to reach through the photo's of young Claud and hug her and tell her that she is a wonderful mum already, don't let him go. Yet again Claud your writing (well now movies) bring me to tears...and hubby is wondering what I am watching over and over!
Gabby
Wonderful beyond words!
ReplyDeleteSo very beautiful...
ReplyDeletewow claude. this is a very touching video. i tried to watch it all, but it was too much for me.
ReplyDeleteso happy that you have reunited with your baby boy!
:o)
E.
Beautiful. My favorite part? Seeing all the rings and bracelets on a young you and then fast forwarding to a young Max with that same sense of style his mom had when he was born.
ReplyDeleteClaud, its beautiful!
ReplyDeleteVery, very well done.
Jensboys
Just. Beautiful.
ReplyDeleteHere from Ungrateful Little Bastard. I was prepared to see the video, smile, be a little touched.
ReplyDeleteThe music was perfect. The images of you as a new mom reminded me of how I felt when I first held my newborn son.
I cried. I didn't want to.
Adoption sucks ass.
Gosh, I'm glad the sound doesn't work on my computer. I would have been gushing uncontrollably.
ReplyDeleteThe early pics of you and your son are beautiful. I wish to god someone would have intervened at that point and stopped the adoption.
Sometimes I thank god I could never get pregnant. I couldn't have survived all that.
Help please!
ReplyDeleteI want to fix adoption! The site fixadoption.com doesn't load! Is there something I'm missing?
Hang on..FixAdoption is coming...still under contruction!!
ReplyDeleteIt's beautiful Claude. So so SO beautiful.
ReplyDeleteIt's beautiful.
ReplyDelete